dear karen ,
i'm sorry mr. q is still not feeling well. i hope you DO get answers in new orleans!
it is strange about your mil not saying anything and then thanking you for the visit. and you're right. don't try and wrap your brain around this disease cause you will get all tangled up .
i think my mom was in 1958 yesterday. when i came in she said, "oh hello, baby." i am beginning to think this is less a term of affection as it is the way she sees me...as a child.
she asked me if i had fun at grandma's that day. i can't play 1958 or 1964. i play right now. so i answered, "mom, i don't know why you're asking if i had fun at grandma's because grandma is dead." my mom was kind of quiet after that. she said, "i forget a lot, i don't know why." but she didn't seem so upset about it. she talked about working at the hospital and liking her job and everyone liking her.
she had complaints about the aide that wakes her up in the morning and gets her dressed and moving. today she didn't want to get out of bed at all. so they left her in bed. the aide came in and i told her my mom was complaining about her, but i smiled when i said it cause i know the aide is just trying to get my mom out of bed and moving. the aide asked me about 2 names my mom keeps saying. i told the aide they were the first names of her mother and father. i think it's odd that my mom calls her parents by their first names instead of "my mother or my father". but that's another thing i'm not going to worry about cause i have no answers. the aide said my mom wore her winer coat all day the previous day and she put some things in a bag cause she was ready to go home. so they let her wear the coat.
she also mentioned getting out of the nursing home, but she only said one sentence about it. she seems to have lost the urgency to get out of the nursing home, she is forgetting more and more. and in a way, it looks like a blessing because she seems more at peace. not anxious about the future.
so, i will officially say my mom is worse in memory, but better in attitude or peaceful status. the bad and the good. i feel she won't miss me if i don't come and visit her sometimes, because i think she sees me as a child and a child can't come to the nursing home without their parents.
my mom is far away from here and i'm glad because she is less fearful.
i can do nothing about it.
i can do nothing about it...
thank you for sharing and caring ,