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    Really Struggling Here

    Not doing real good here lately. My anxiety level seems to be off the charts. actually had to take a klonopin yesterday and today in the middle of the day. Haven't had to do that in ages.

    Thinking here lately that maybe my effexor is starting to poop out. Funny cause when I had my last meet with my psych she was talking about how far we've come and how well the Effexor has been working for me so I don't know if maybe I need a raise which I don't think we can due to the Pamelor. Definitely not going wiithout the Pamelor.

    It is more anxiety. Maybe I should see about starting a day dose until this passes. Hopefully it passes.

    It's so bad that when I go to get something or do something I find myself standing in one place trying to remember what I was doing because my mind has raced so far ahead on to something totally unrelated.

    Could that be a form of adult ADD?

    I am having a horrible time being happy or content. All that crowds my brain are bills, cleaning, shortcake failing school, his encopresis, B in danger in GA and getting him home and Cj which is a whole nother thing I'm going to have to put in ES. I have to cause I got nobody else and I need to tell it. I can't get rid of it and am having trouble dealing so sharing may help.

    #2
    Hey honey, I am sorry you are having a rough time, I really understand. I have been reading about your son in Ga. And that you are trying to get him and the children out of there. Being a Ga. Girl , I am aware of the many trailer parks that are not in the safest location. I can see why this has you so torn up, I would be too. I really hope he can get home and get those children out of that environment .
    Dear lady , I am right there with you with the racing thoughts, half the time I am on the next word before I finished the word I was writing at the time, it's warp speed , good thing my family has learned my special way of writing..I have anxiety issues as well and sometime I have to take an extra dose of my meds in the middle of the day, but this has been cleared by my doctor as she knows I am also living with my husband who is early dementia ...somedays you just have to do what you can o to make it through. Honey check with your doctor about adding a dose, you are too special to have to be dealing with so much without needed help .
    Big hugs to you and you are stronger than you know ! GING
    Last edited by Ging; 01-15-2013, 12:25 PM.

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      #3
      been thinking about you Chris. mainly thinking of what will happen if you bring your son home (and his new family). since you didn't ask for advice-I will keep my 2 cents out of it!

      very sorry you are having a rough time of it Chris. was hoping your life would even out for awhile! you deserve some good times.

      I agree with Ging,call your doc & ask for more meds. you don't need to suffer if you can help it.

      hugs,Pati

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        #4
        Lol Pati now you know that I am always open to advice, yes you too Jeannie I hear you. So say what ya feel the need to say.


        Let me explain, if it were just B and this woman then it'd be a different story but there are three children in danger. I'm talking child pornography, child molestation and whatever the wackos see fit to try. As of now the girls are back with B and their mother. The more they heard the more they realized that these were not 5 and 6 yr old imaginings.

        she has no family down there to help them and B's dad is worthless and a wuss. She was born in a deep dark hole and just when she finally starts a good life on her own, just her and the kids, her family blows into town and tears her and her children back down to nothing while B stands by and watches because he knows he has no right messing in family business he knows nothing about. Waiting for her essentially to put her foot down. She had a great job, a new truck, the oldest had started pre-k. Things were going good when she met B. then her mother shows up from Chicago with this poor me, I have cancer, no one to take care of me, no one who cares whining and so J let's her move in with her and the kids. Soon comes brother and sisters. All junkies and thieves. Cons like you wouldn't believe. B has already been assaulted by the brother, their trailer was broken into and destroyed and so now they sleep with a baseball bat beside their bed. I've told them to let a trusted neighbor know that they are having trouble and if anyone shows up those kids are to hit that back door and run to that neighbor.

        I tell ya things are just different down there. She has a great job but if her family finds out where she is working it won't last long. She works for a major distribution center and is making good money. She has taken the retail test and aced it so that hopefully the company will help her relocate.

        I highly doubt her family will follow her or if they can even find out she's up here. If they do then we shall give them a righteous Flint, Michigan welcome. They won't last long, this ain't the south.

        B wanted to come back anyway and she didn't until hearing the girls talking about two weeks ago. Then she was all for it. At this point I don't think they care where they go but they're all in danger and know that the kids have to get out of here. At least here I can help them get started. She ain't no whiny slouch either. She works her butt off, is intelligent but she has it hard when dealing with her family. She turns back into that abused little girl every time something happens with them. She's growin a pair though, B gives her strength and she is getting much better at dealing with them.

        Now ya'll can all pipe up and tell me I'm crazy and just looking for trouble and a boatload of stress lolol. I know ya wanna

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          #5
          Georgia eh? wouldn't think anyone would WANT to live there myself. what about her getting help down there? surely the ***** stuff is illegal there also?this all sounds totally creepy Chris! I do understand your urge to help. that's who you are. and you know how to get through the systems. guess my concern is for your own health,your own family?

          thanks for taking the time to explain the situation Chris. in reality it's your life & your decision. get your ducks in a row & begin blasting is what I say.

          and wishing you the best of luck Lil Queenie! ((((hugs)))) Pati

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            #6
            now my mama was a Ga. peach, but thank goodness granny Smith had sense enough to hi tail it back to SC when mama was a wee babe.

            my baby lives down there, bit hope he will come back to Carolina in another year. He will come only if he can bring his 2 babies back with him.

            Patti is wise, I tend to agree with her. Maybe he can come and haven she has everything in order with the kids . She can come.

            Make sure B is safe. Ga. laws are the pits. TRUST ME

            Bing has good idea get a go ahead for those extra meds.

            love you bunches, big queenie
            Did you ever know that you're my hero and every thing I would like to be I can fly higher than an eagle
            'cause you are the wind beneath my wings

            for my brother Ben

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              #7
              thinking about you and family. hope all works out for the best.
              love you, jo
              Last edited by Jo6; 01-18-2013, 11:34 PM.
              Did you ever know that you're my hero and every thing I would like to be I can fly higher than an eagle
              'cause you are the wind beneath my wings

              for my brother Ben

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                #8
                Houghchrist - Not much I can offer that has not already been said. Understand the anxiety thing ALL too well It sucks - sorry about languagre but that is ther only word that fits. You and all yours are in my prayers, Don't know much about Georgia, Can vouch Virginia is a good state - Good people and good laws. Stay a zillion miles awat from Florida - nothing but BAD.
                Blessings
                Alex44
                Skypilot

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                  #9
                  thanks all. Yesterday they got home and there was a card in their door from a place called Choices For Growth saying for J to call her. Look it up and it is basically a division of child protective services. Her sister more likely, the one with the molestor husband, in the same town as on the card. I advised them to call her first thing Monday morning to set up an appt., that this could benefit them. Tell her what is going on and use every resource put before you. Maybe she can help.

                  J's sister thinks that J was laid off and that B left back home. So she thinks J is home with the kids and collecting unemployment. No way to get the kids to school or anywhere else for that matter. This was an attempt to get them to leave B and J alone but it's not working so well lolol.

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                    #10
                    Christina, I do pray things will work out best for the kids, B and J.

                    If the sister has contacted child pretective services there is no telling what she told them.. You can be sure it will be in her and her husbands favor.

                    I should not have said anything, but I am well aware of Child Pretective Services, in Ga. especially. No matter what sister tells them, they will want to know why the mother didn't say anything before now. It could get very nasty.

                    I pray something good can come out of this for the kids and of course B and J.

                    much love, Jo
                    Did you ever know that you're my hero and every thing I would like to be I can fly higher than an eagle
                    'cause you are the wind beneath my wings

                    for my brother Ben

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                      #11
                      J. seems to be at risk of losing her kids. just my opinion. agree with Jo. the sister will back her hubby no doubt.what a mess!

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                        #12
                        Well CPS showed up yesterday and interviewed the kids and both B and J. Looks like there may be a case opened up on the sister and her husband. Hoping it happens quick because she has small children too.

                        They told that woman everything. From the very beginning. Her mother prostituting her out, her brother in laws advances and molestations, her mother moving in to her apartment and then kicking her out. Which the police ignored and there are police records. She took all the information and will be getting all the police records. The kids are in school so there is no problem there and the landlord is out today to fix all the things wrong with the trailer. That is pretty much all she requested that the two of them do.

                        I am really hoping this lady can help them. They arent always the bad guys. Some times you get a good person.

                        Oh and the paperwork that J filled out signing her kids over to her sister for a year is no good. Something the sister typed up. J never signed just filled it out because it was just to be in the event of an emergency. I didnt know it was fake or I could have told him it was no good. Now suddenly the sister cant find the paper when CPS asks for it. I am thinking they want it to use against her. Kripes isnt that some kind of fraud? I am concerned that once this whole thing starts something serious might happen.


                        Well with my therapy last night it seems my anxiety is definitely not being controlled. Yes I take Effexor and while it takes the edge off of depression I don't think it is doing a dang thing for my anxiety neither does she. My psych just quit the clinic I was going to so she could spend more time with her family. She has a day job at the hospital psych ward and was coming to my clinic twice a week then once a week and now she's gone. sad. lots will miss her. They signed me automatically to another guy who I see next week but my therapist wants me to see someone else so she is turning in a transfer sheet. I will see the one next week and get my refills then put in a transfer request and she says the new doc is an MD also. She wants me to see him because I also have health issues and take other meds so he will have a better idea of how to help.



                        crossing my fingers.

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                          #13
                          Christina, hopefully some good things will start going on. You are right, everybody is not bad. They only know what they are told. Then if they do their job they will try to decide who is telling the truth.

                          Many times the truth comes from the kids. All of this is just an other worry to keep your nerves in a state. Try to chill and remember we are here for you.

                          Many prayers and hugs. Jo
                          Did you ever know that you're my hero and every thing I would like to be I can fly higher than an eagle
                          'cause you are the wind beneath my wings

                          for my brother Ben

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                            #14
                            I am trying to folllow along to keep up. Of course I am hoping for the best for everyone. My heart aches at how some human beings are treated. horrible horrible that anyone should be treated like I have read here. Prayers for those that need healing. And for the best for those hurting so. Just at a loss of words just now.

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                              #15
                              hi Joy, it's good to here from you. Our sweet Christina has so much on her plate right now I hope she can find some strength & piece of mind just knowing we are here for her.

                              I can not quote chapter and verse, but some where in the Bible it speaks of he'll being hotter for those that mistreat children and the elderly.

                              Christina please know we are here:) All my love, Julia
                              Did you ever know that you're my hero and every thing I would like to be I can fly higher than an eagle
                              'cause you are the wind beneath my wings

                              for my brother Ben

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