In It Again
So here it is Spring, and things are revving up full force once more. I was doing a little bit better, but now all bets are off.
I'm so fed up (ha ha...a pun!!) with myself, and my body. I'm fat and I hate it. I have managed to lose 45 pounds but I'm still huge. I must lose 45 more, then I can relax, I guess. I MUST get down to 120 or 115. I eat only vegetables with lemon juice, fruit, soy milk, grains. (I'm vegan). I eat 800-1000 calories a day. Madness? Not really.............
Hey Fig.
People out here care. I'm a stranger but we are both humans stuck on this planet for a little while. I've managed to lose my goal weight- not to sound like I have it beat but claim credibility. Time is the magic.
Over time you will reach your goal if you use it to your advantage. Maybe you aren't in the market for advice.... yeah I get that. Pretty sure that information isn't the problem. Please don't be hard on yourself. We can always read books or participate in activities that point our self critical mind outwards where it doesn't judge harshly- and (as long as we aren't eating while we do it) for a time - we can feel happy. Use that time. It is the fourth dimension. Without it we would all be pictures is some cosmic kitchen drawer....
Oh Fig I am so sorry you are struggling. You must be shorter than I am to want to get down so far. Under five feet are you?
Just a smidge under five feet.
Well, I can say it is not comfy to live in this body that should weigh no more than 120. Some meds are not helping at all either. I should be thankful that Prednisone is helping the COPD and I am thankful for that, but to carry around this extra weight doesn't do anything good either.
I feel for any of you that have eating disorders. Whatever it is it isn't pleasant.
Fig, don't worry over it, it isn't worth fretting over. I've dealt with anorexia, buliumia and on and on. My daughter, but it affecta the whole family.
Just hang in there and it will work it's way to what you need to weigh.
If this sounds disjointed that's because I feel disjointed!! The Barometor is going crazy and all my aches and pains are flaring to high heaven. That too shall pass, I hope!
Take care all and it is nice to meet you Fig and RustyB. I've been gone awhile, but hope to get stronger so I can come more often. Good to see you too lil'queenie, my love to all, Jo
Did you ever know that you're my hero and every thing I would like to be I can fly higher than an eagle
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings
for my brother Ben
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