[SIZE=4] In 1968, my dad commited suicide when I was 12. He drank alot; but he loved us kids & always treated us good. Life goes on & death is easier I believe when your young. In 2000, my only brother who was the youngest of us 5 kids, died. He was with a few of his freinds & then the next day, someone fround him on his front porch. Police said that he was dragged onto the porch (shirts were pulled up around his neck & arms straight above his head) But autopsy stated he died from suffocation from vomiting (can't remember the correct term) Cops said it was accidental, My brother was 42.
Then 5 years later, my younger sister lossed her battle with 3 kinds of cancer (brain, lung & bone). She was 50 years old. She loved animals. She was always picking up strays & taking care of them. Even an owl with a broken wing.
Then in Oct 2010, my middle son who was 36 tried committing suicide (him & his girlfriend were breaking up) we got him to the hospital in time & for a few weeks everything seemed ok. But, then my son got very depressed & took more drugs. We called for an ambulance, but instead 2 state troopers came. They stood there talking to my son for awhile & he seemed OK & even agreed to go to the Er. But he wanted the cops to leave--- but they wouldn't & things went so horriblly wrong. They tased him 4 times & held him down with one of their knees on the back of my son's neck & I yelled for them to quit. I watched while my son died. He struggled BUT did not fight with them --- he just kept putting his hands under his stomach so they could not cuff him.
Today my youngest son received the results from tests that were ordered for him. He's been having alot of headaches & dizzy spells. Our family Dr told us that he was making an appointment in Pittsburgh for my son as soon as possible. He either has a cyst or tumor or brain cancer.
My son has a 11 year old that he has full custody of. I wish my brother & my sister & my other son would of had children, but none of them did.
I do have an older son. Him & his wife have 2 kids a 12 year old & a 5 year old; so I do have 2 grandsons & a granddaughter. I am grateful for them; as well as the rest of my family. I get by each day with my good memories & with Jesus listening to my prayers. Thank you for letting me unload some of this.