((((((Hugs to All)))))) ~
At 1:30 this morning, Jim passed. He is now pain-free, at peace and reunited with Jonathan and Michael.
I did everything I could to help him, and in my heart, I knew that his journey would soon be completed. He was restless, grabbing at his blankets, everything around him. He pulled off the O2 cannula. He said he couldn’t see. His voice began to fade.
I kept kissing him and telling him how much I adore him, how thankful I am that God brought us together and for all he has done for our boys and me. His last words to me ~ “I love you honey.”
I called the mortuary and was told that I had to call the police. I called the police, and I was patched to the fire department, as paramedics had to pronounce him deceased. The 5 paramedics arrived within minutes. They were all very kind and compassionate.
The police then arrived, 4 of them, and one of the officers is the same officer, who was here for Jonathan. He remembered everything about us, every detail and conversation. I know Jonathan and Michael must have timed it so he would be the officer to see me through this tragedy.
A CSI officer arrived later and took photos. I had to line up his medication bottles on his tray for her to photograph.
They all asked me the same questions, and I told them the history of our family. They looked at Jon’s and Michael’s photos, and they were all amazed by our family.
“Our” officer called the coroner, and I didn’t need to speak to her. He took care of everything for me.
While waiting for the mortuary attendants, I bathed Jim and anointed him with my tears. I didn’t know what to put on him for clothing. I chose one of Jon’s gowns; in fact, the same pattern as the one I placed on Jonathan.
The mortuary attendants couldn’t have been more caring. Our officer stayed with me until the mortuary van drove away. Then he stood on the driveway and told me that he’s seen a lot in his short time on the police force, but our family is the first time that he has felt overwhelmed with emotion. He said the love in our family and my devotion to our children and Jim inspired him.
That was a little after 4 a.m., and it’s now 5 a.m.
In a couple of hours, I will call John and Nancy. I need to get some rest. I haven’t slept at all, and I’ve been on my feet for many hours.
Writing this now is sort of a debriefing for me. I’m going to lay down on the futon with my heating pad, and at least try to rest a little, if not sleep.
I’ll probably finish this later in the day.
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I slept for about an hour. My first call was to Nancy. We cried and shared our memories. She is calling Dr. K for me.
I will wait until this afternoon, when John is finished with work, to call him.
The mortuary called, the same wonderful gentleman, who took care of Jonathan’s arrangements. Because of COVID-19, all arrangements are made on the phone now, with emailing the documents. He was very kind. I asked him if I could call him tomorrow, as I’m just spent today.
For now, I’m going to try to eat something and get some rest.
I love you all and thank you so much for walking beside us every step of our journey. Jim loved you all too, and he knew all of your stories and prayed for you.
God Bless You ~
Love & Light,
Rose
At 1:30 this morning, Jim passed. He is now pain-free, at peace and reunited with Jonathan and Michael.
I did everything I could to help him, and in my heart, I knew that his journey would soon be completed. He was restless, grabbing at his blankets, everything around him. He pulled off the O2 cannula. He said he couldn’t see. His voice began to fade.
I kept kissing him and telling him how much I adore him, how thankful I am that God brought us together and for all he has done for our boys and me. His last words to me ~ “I love you honey.”
I called the mortuary and was told that I had to call the police. I called the police, and I was patched to the fire department, as paramedics had to pronounce him deceased. The 5 paramedics arrived within minutes. They were all very kind and compassionate.
The police then arrived, 4 of them, and one of the officers is the same officer, who was here for Jonathan. He remembered everything about us, every detail and conversation. I know Jonathan and Michael must have timed it so he would be the officer to see me through this tragedy.
A CSI officer arrived later and took photos. I had to line up his medication bottles on his tray for her to photograph.
They all asked me the same questions, and I told them the history of our family. They looked at Jon’s and Michael’s photos, and they were all amazed by our family.
“Our” officer called the coroner, and I didn’t need to speak to her. He took care of everything for me.
While waiting for the mortuary attendants, I bathed Jim and anointed him with my tears. I didn’t know what to put on him for clothing. I chose one of Jon’s gowns; in fact, the same pattern as the one I placed on Jonathan.
The mortuary attendants couldn’t have been more caring. Our officer stayed with me until the mortuary van drove away. Then he stood on the driveway and told me that he’s seen a lot in his short time on the police force, but our family is the first time that he has felt overwhelmed with emotion. He said the love in our family and my devotion to our children and Jim inspired him.
That was a little after 4 a.m., and it’s now 5 a.m.
In a couple of hours, I will call John and Nancy. I need to get some rest. I haven’t slept at all, and I’ve been on my feet for many hours.
Writing this now is sort of a debriefing for me. I’m going to lay down on the futon with my heating pad, and at least try to rest a little, if not sleep.
I’ll probably finish this later in the day.
***********************
I slept for about an hour. My first call was to Nancy. We cried and shared our memories. She is calling Dr. K for me.
I will wait until this afternoon, when John is finished with work, to call him.
The mortuary called, the same wonderful gentleman, who took care of Jonathan’s arrangements. Because of COVID-19, all arrangements are made on the phone now, with emailing the documents. He was very kind. I asked him if I could call him tomorrow, as I’m just spent today.
For now, I’m going to try to eat something and get some rest.
I love you all and thank you so much for walking beside us every step of our journey. Jim loved you all too, and he knew all of your stories and prayed for you.
God Bless You ~
Love & Light,
Rose
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