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Snow is gone. Only took two days. I am totally stumped, first we get the so called polar vortex with a state of emergency and a few days later all the snow is gone and we are in a warm front. Does this not scare people?

Not getting anything done but the bare minimum. Am wondering if my foster work is taking away from my work around the house. I spend all morning combing the rescues for needed help and posting about my fosters trying to get them adopted that next thing I know it is ...

here. Seems like forever since I have been here. Guess two weeks is a bit of time. Psych meds have evened out and I am questioning my own true need for them. That day when my head had cleared and I had energy and felt good then I go get my scrips and while a few of my symptoms abate and calm I feel frickin' blah. Just blah. No energy to do anything. Too damn cold to go out right now. Have been getting more music therapy. Been cooking more. I for the first time in a long time am overdrawn for a ...

bad here. I am a total wreck and a half. Made it through a week and a half of withdrawal and have a morning where I don't feel like crap, go to the psych and get my refills and now that I am back on meds I am feeling like s**t again. The lovely adjustment period. I am beginning to wonder if my meds were doing anything for me besides help me sleep. I have been miserable for a long time. I am tired. I am so very tired. Of the pain, the depression, the constant rushing anxiety, counting damn words ...

New Year and I feel like crap. Now withdrawaling from most of my psych meds. My Klonopin is going to be missed the most. No sleep without it. Only until Friday. I think I can make it until then. That's funny cause it is not like I have a choice.

Child Protective Services was here this week regarding the fact that marijuana tested positive in the baby's meconium back when she first found out she was pregnant. She'd used but didn't know she was pregnant. So of course CPS was called and ...

is here and since my self make over is failing I am trying to decide if I should get back on track or if I should stop beating myself up for all the ways I'm not. All the things I'm not. The things I'm not doing, the things in my life I haven't changed. I am getting things done, nothing major but they are getting done. I am fostering which is fulfilling and enjoyable, my house is a mess, my kitchen is disgusting as usual. Jared does very little around here any more. Just the most basic of what I ...