Chris is babbling again.

now that the Trintillex is gone. I can cry again. And I do. Frustrated crying. Crying about pain, money, good news, while thanking God for the sweet little good bits in my day here and there. No I'm not a cry baby and I don't cry all the time but I tell ya when I am all up in my emotions things go so much better if I can release them. I think that even though I have titrated off I am still getting a little bit of withdrawal. Realizing it for what it is and letting it pass which is hard.
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through my first three entries and wow was I feeling ambitious. Wonder was it mania, desperation, now I blog through depression and pain. I need to find my way back to that. Andy holy smokes if it ain't been over a year. My God time flies. I feel like I have sunk in a pit since then. My lists have stopped because my pain is so bad that I can do only the bare minimum, clean bathroom, living room, kitchen. Not all at the same time. I go to PT and that's it. I have packed up my meds to go to the ...

Trintellix yesterday. I have done every other day for the last two weeks and I figure about another month it should be out of my system. I can feel it, I am more energetic, I can cry lol if I feel like it, and I don't feel so much like a lump.

I have been reminded me that one of the main reasons I started this blog was because I wanted to change some things in my life and in order to begin that I want/need to get my house in order. Literally, then in doing so I can expand that to my ...

my life at this moment. I sit here considering going to the ER because I am pretty sure there is something seriously wrong. The pain is radiating up the side of my neck and into my head so I have a constant headache.

Went to the ER here. Pain was just too bad. They did an xray and found nothing thank God. Gave me a shot of morphine which took forever to work and script for Baclofen. I just use my Zanaflex instead as it is stronger and seems to work better. I never thought I would say ...

are over and I survived. Even got out of making New Years dinner I had planned. Glorious McDonalds. A rare treat these days. Suggested by the manchild. Planned bacon cheese dogs but after nap just wasn't feeling it. Slowly taking down the Christmas decor. There is not a lot.

My Sweet Sadie is in Kitty City hopefully to be adopted soon. She will be there for a month. She is so sweet I wouldn't be surprised if a foster adopted her.

My quitting smoking today has already failed. ...