Chris is babbling again.

Yep the mania is gone, definitely was withdrawal. If I scale myself with 1 being happy and 10 being super depressed I am about a 6......well I am not crying, at least right now cause I just got up lol. I have to remember that my depression is a different animal than my anxiety. Even if they do feed off of one another. The more anxious I am the more depressed I become. My anxiety level unfortunately is usually based on my situation, therefore situational anxiety. That is what is untreated. My anxiety ...

though I can feel myself losing momentum. The thrill is gone now it becomes work. THat is the attitude that needs to change. I need to keep the good up, the gratitude that I can do these things. that I know what to do. What I want to do. The ability to do them.

Keeping up my morning routine is becoming just that, did have to stop and brush my teeth. I have a terrible habit of starting things but now following through. My old therapist said I had a cycle where I was status quo for a ...

got up at 4:30 figured I'd just go back to bed in a little while. Of course mama and kittens heard me so now they are zipping around the living room. Dash is whimpering from the bedroom, Bella is meowing from the basement both unhappy with me lol.

The dog was parvo negative so I paid for his parvo shot and he got a deworming. Such a relief. Now I worry about finding the poor thing a rescue. Neutering, rabies and all the other wonderful things. I can't afford all that. His Neutering ...

It is late in the day. I slept in til 11 today and feel pretty good. That's 12 1/2 hours. I was wore out from yesterday and cooking out with Brennifer and family. It is ridiculously stressful on me even though I enjoy it. Every event like that takes it out of me and takes me a day or two to recover. No issues with starting the Furosemide back up thank God. I got my stuff done this morning. Yay!!

I sit here now waiting on word of a dog I am vet sponsoring to see if he has parvo. We are ...

We are confident that Bliss is on the Other Side. Sorrow is the sister of Bliss, and it is what we endure on this side. While we rejoice for our loved ones, we mourn for our loss. It's their gain, but it is our loss. And it is painful, because as long as we are Earth-bound, we relate in the physical realm.

I stole this from Rose. She doesn't know yet but I will tell her. It spoke to me, made so much sense, made me so sad. I am sick of sorrow. How do I get rid of that. Does one ...